I have been listening to music, as usual, and thinking a lot about what to do with my life, as usual. I feel like every single decision I make can, and will, shape my future in a different way, and I feel I shouldn't chose to much, or do much right now.
I know that I want to be where I should have been already. But I am not there, and that's because I made my choices, and I was wrong. How to change now?
There is a song, from a singer called Ana Carolina. She is awesome, btw. The song is called Ruas de Outono, and I was just listening to it. And thinking...
Why the hell life is so full of decisions? Why aren't the solutions for my problems knocking at my door?
Should I adopt a cat, get married, buy a bicycle, or have a kid? Maybe writing a book?
I am a mess...I just hope I am still the adorable mess, am I?
Another song, today I am feeling musical!
Found myself today singing out loud your name,
you said I'm crazy,
if I am I'm crazy for you.
Sometimes sitting in the dark wishing you were here
turns me crazy,
but it's you who makes me lose my head.
And every time I'm meant to be acting sensible
you drift into my head
and turn me into a crumbling fool.
Tell me to run and I'll race,
if you want me to stop I'll freeze,
and if you are me gonna leave, just hold me closer baby,
and make me crazy for you.
Crazy for you.
Lately with this state I'm in I can't help myself but spin.
I wish you'd come over,
send me spinning closer to you.
I keep on trying, fighting these feelings away,
but the more I do,
the crazier I turn into.
My oh my, how my blood boils, it's sweet taste for you,
strips me down bare
and gets me into my favourite mood.
Pacing floors and opening doors,
hoping you'll walk through
and save me boy,
because I'm too crazy for you.
Crazy for you